You caressed me, 
Held me close,

Assured me you couldn’t love me more.

I’m sure you couldn’t.
But you left and came back for seconds,
Despite being with another.

And still I dreamt of you charming me.
That smile.
Thinking I could accept the little bits.

But I can’t.
It hurts too much.
I feel too much hate,
For her and you.

A toxic emotion I choose to expunge,
From my soul.

I’m too spoilt to be second best.
To be afters.
To be less.

But I so much wanted your hand.
Your reassurance.
Your love.

And yet this is my path.